Jane writes:
This song is on an album bought in 1988 when vinyl was king and the joy of buying a new turntable and speakers was a day-long outing in a padded room (intentionally for sound quality) – with cups of tea and endless listening to the same thing.
I know this album really well as a result but time passes and new music fills your ears. It was, in fact, the track title then that sprang into my consciousness as I was reading a reflection on what it is to think that something is done and finalised and, at the same time, be well aware that within a nano-second, circumstances will change and the now will be new again.
There’s a lot of stuff swimming around in this little head of mine at the minute.
I am generally a girl who likes closure and clarity – it’s in my personality – and yet, even I have had to learn that the only certainty at the minute is uncertainty, and what seems to be done or important slips away to something else. Its like grappling with jelly. I am also a sensitive soul who occasionally just has to batten down the hatches and “run away” – yet that too is for the large part unsatisfactory against the reality of what we face as a society. God’s Beloved People.
Oh, and alongside that, there’s a lot of procrastinating around at the moment. I’m seeing it everywhere and it’s beginning to wear thin.
“Well we won’t meet again as Local Preachers until we can do so in person.”
“Let’s leave the covenant service until next year when we can be in the building.”
“Let’s not have Holy Communion because meeting on Zoom (substitute another medium here) isn’t real community.”
“Let’s leave that until we can be together and sort it then.”
All of that despite the fact that we have been meeting for work, socialising for life and worshipping the Living God that way for the best part of a year and still we don’t see it as a reality of life as people of faith.
I get it in a way, as I am longing for the days when I can breathe the same air and feel truly connected to others again. Sing together (and I don’t just mean church – our family has a long tradition of it when we gather); natter about something other than death and a virus that’s killing thousands of people, the economy and our resilience; hold hands and hug when words can’t say what you want them to. You get the picture but if we’re not careful, there is something afoot that’s akin to inertia. Our uncertainty leads to inaction. We breed our own malaise. I breed my own malaise.
So for me this song title alone is enough to jolt me from that kind of slumber and complexity. The writer is, I’m pretty sure, not writing about a global pandemic but the words are so provocative around how we act in response to what we actually place value on and how we love one another.
If not now, then when?
If not today,
Then, why make your promises?
A love declared for days to come,
Is as good as none.
We have just been through a period of preparation and waiting. “Noticing” in readiness for remembering the incarnation of God and as a tradition we value this waiting space. It has something to teach us and as we approach Lent, the same messages will be heard. Time to stop – to think – to wait.
The Bible though, is also littered with passages of urgency, agency and grasping opportunity. Stories of fleeing persecution in the midst of chaos, building an Ark, upping sticks and venturing out into the unknown, following a star just because you think you should, changing plans to use other routes, healing the sick, following a call to leave fishing nets there and then, getting out of a tree, offering the Good News to anyone who listens, recognising the kingdom of God is already at hand within each one of us and therefore changing to a new way of living. I could go on. It advocates prayer and listening to God but does it really ever say “well….. it’s a bit tricky so you wait a bit until the dust settles”.
As people of faith we make promises to God that we will live in a way that shows others this God of love that is constant and faithful, yet ever-changing and renewing. That we will step out and step up when required to. That we are sure God is with us. ‘Cause if not now, then when? If not today, then, why make your promises? Don’t mis-hear me. This is tough. It isn’t always doable and it isn’t about being busy with stuff just to be distracted.
We are in difficult and uncertain times but we are here. It is for me about seeing that life now is what it is and God is a God for now – not later, not eventually, not in due course – NOW!
If not now, what then?
We all must live our lives.
Always feeling.
Always thinking.
The moment has arrived.
If not now, then when?
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