‘Bulletproof’ – La Roux

Alison writes:

In 2009ish La Roux arrived in my awareness, she won a Grammy and was very very cool. Recently this song of hers has been in my play list again

“Tick, tick, tick, tick on the watch

And life’s too short for me to stop

Oh baby, your time is running out“

My dad died in January and I was determined to deliver the work I’d committed to, despite having been ill with fatigue for months the year before. The jury is out as to whether that was foolish or not. But certainly my sub-conscious attitude was

“This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof”

Then after weeks of crying and getting to the stage where I was so tired I couldn’t work out how to log on to some online learning portal, I finally took time to rest. 

What did Jesus do when he found out a relative of his had died?

“When Jesus heard this [John had been murdered], he withdrew from there in a boat to a deserted place”

Matthew 14.13

This failure of mine to rest isn’t new. I’ve crashed and burned a few times in my life including as a much younger woman. 

“This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I’ll be bulletproof”

What were the patterns Jesus had from his early working life? 

“In the morning while it was still very dark, he got up and went out to a deserted place, and there he prayed”

Mark 1.35

I’m learning to be present in the patterns of the year. I love to spot a new season coming. I’m very keen on full moons and swimming outdoors and really want those two to happen at once sometime soon. When I do these things I’m much better at rest. 

In Mark 4 Jesus is shown to be teaching using metaphors from nature, and then what does he do? 

Leaving the crowd being him…

Mark 4. 35&36

I’m learning to take space for the rest and the life affirming moments and space. 

Jesus however did this often

“Jesus often withdrew to lonely places to pray”

Luke 5.16

So my prayer this lent is to be present in some simple life affirming moments. 

I’m accepting Jesus’ invitation to step away and pray. I’m praying in these ways and others. 

I’m hoping that maybe this time I’ll learn that I’m not bulletproof

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